My Dad has always said that things such as jobs, relationships, and opportunities just fall into my lap. I think he is right.
My goal for 2012 was to be more positive; specifically in my work life. Why not? Things are looking up because I am nearing the end of my tenure in a job I loathe and I am LUCKY enough to have people working to solidify my next opportunity. Have I mentioned that I have the best work mentors ever? Seriously, they are all responsible for me not walking into traffic multiple times over the past 10 months. They have let me vent, see sides to my current role that I could not/would not see, and tell me that better jobs are ahead. Whew. Also, currently I work with some of the best people out there. Real salt of the Earth people who have embraced my wacky ways and made me a part of their family while I was pushing them away (and correcting their grammar). I am not sure I would have been so welcoming to an outsider like me. Unless it was for entertainment purposes. I am so happy to have that family at work (because the job is deplorable).
We have had some shake ups at work recently and it has done nothing but help me find my next role. Honestly, I went to the dark side (shocker) and just assumed that I would end up going down with the ship because I would be assumed as “damaged goods” but that could not be further from the truth. Once I opened up and started reaching out to people at work I was overwhelmed by the responses. I am going to make it. I am going to make lemonade out of lemons. I am going to reach my next professional goal. I am going to be happy and proud in my work again. Thank goodness!
Granted, nothing is in stone and I still have my current role to work through, but I am making major strides. And, jacking up something at work today made me realize that just because I may not like my job, I do not know it well enough to underestimate this business. I had to eat crow today and make some special provisions to ensure that the work stayed on track, but I recovered well. I handled the business by fessing up, calling in help, and staying late. You cannot say that I walked away from the challenge. I could have had an emotional breakdown and lost my shit but I still would have had to stay at work until 6:45pm and I would not have the respect of my managers (or my associates). I am walking away from this job with my head held high and with people saying, “that girl was crazy, but she handled her shit”. I will take that.
In the grand scheme of things I am an extremely lucky person – even if I do not always see it. To me I am always falling, but in the end I fall into something good. Maybe I do not see it that way in the moment but hindsight is 20/20. Focusing on what I can control and understanding that showing a happy face cost me nothing. In fact, it colors my world happy. Been a while since I have seen that color on me and it looks good!
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